To the surprise of no one, the only things I got done during midsem break were the two reports due this week, both finished at 11pm Sunday and 8:30am Monday. I continue to disappoint myself.
Speaking of which, I totally forgot about an online quiz worth 15% that was two weeks ago. In the most dead easy subject in my entire degree, Intro to Food Science. I’ve got two years more knowledge than almost anyone in that course, and yet I miss the quiz? Don’t know if that’s worse than flunking it.
Oh yeah, what else has happened? Went to the easter show with Dodo and a friend of hers, who invited two of his friends. One of them was a girl who didn’t seem to want to talk to me and the other dude just sounded like a certain high school classmate every time he opened his mouth. It was fun and I did get some good showbags! No diving pigs this year and I missed the vegetable carving demonstration unfortunately. Saw many cute dogs and chicks and turkeys and pigeons and had my requisite curly fries so all went well.
Feels like I’m coming down with something, my head’s been hurting all day and the mild nausea won’t go away. Probably my dad’s nasty germs – literally the only symptoms he had were fever and bad headaches.
I have many things I would like to do:
– finish various knitting projects: mesh sweater, red scarf, socks, chevron bag
– start various craft projects: headbands, pencil case
– anthropometry report (due week 6)
– fruit and veg report (due week 6)
– sauerkraut report (due week 7)
– starch report (due week 7)
– read more
– get my shit together
– figure out where I’m going with my life
– make a budget
– weed out my belongings and sell stuff on eBay
– buy some hardcase folders for my dad at Daiso/Officeworks
– catch up on various things like manga (very low on the list)
More recently, I’ve been thinking about makeup. I’ve noticed most of the women around me, both friends and classmates, wear makeup to varying degrees. Duh, I guess you’d say, most women do. One of my friends has started wearing makeup and perfume with only the designer brands like YSL, Dior and Chanel. I’d start on the drugstore stuff myself, but I find myself worrying about the silliest things with makeup. Will I look like a clown? Will there be an obvious contrast between my face and my neck? Will it start sliding around my face when I wear lab glasses? (The latter two happen to my classmate’s foundation regularly. No, thank you.) I know my dad would make a fuss because my mum rarely wears makeup and he even did the whole ‘natural is the best beauty look’ thing on me when I put on black nail polish. Nail polish.
So mentally, I guess it’s more of a fear of how other people will react to it – I mean, I won’t be seeing my face all day, everyone else is. I would like to try experimenting with makeup; I have cheap eyeliner pencils, and the effect is less wow than I imagined. That is probably 95% due to my being an utter novice, and the 5% due to overexpectation.
I think it’s part of my overall buying-things-for-the-person-who-I-want-to-be. With which I will say, I will become that person. Either/or by buying less occasion things, or making use of the ones I have.